When would it flow the other way?

Just when the road ahead seemed a like a pulsating heart, understanding and accomodating, willing to throw away its shrillness and further willing to shower its warmth by bestowing the sense of direction to me, I met destiny which refused every bit of help that came my way; Who had given it the authority to refuse on my behalf? The fact that I too wanted to refuse should not be taken into account for I was was willing to accept it. There is (and was and always will be) a difference between ‘wanting’ and ‘willing’ though both have their basis in virtues within the limits of human existance; But they are the opposites. No no, not ‘wanting’ and ‘willing’, but the virtues: the mind and the heart! At times they interchange their roles and at times they do strive to play each other’s part. The reason: ‘ENVY’. Add to it ‘passion’ and vigor and further, add naaz; Now the list of reasons becomes comprehensive. What a good mixture of ‘hope’, ‘desperation’, ‘darkness’. Oh! What a good mixture of living and dead concepts. Here the symphony of heart and mind comes into picture. I will try to give a logistic interpretation of this symphony. What happens is, when mind and heart are playing this game of dominance and recognition, heart always plays the lead role and the mind doesn mind a shift backwords. And thus the innocence of this soul is brutally massacared by the mind, of an unknown survival, and thus, illusions make way for delusions and its not in my heart’s capacity to stop this drift towards the unexpected. There is always an effort made to resist this change and that’s why it hurts, that’s why it feels like someone piercing your heart (not in order to get in or get out but just to enjoy). How the hell can people react without even trying to understand the implications, just banking upon wild assumptions. SHIT! A true contradictions, for I am doing the same: reacting. So I will rephrase my previous statement… How can someone be so expressive in flaunting one’s feelings/ thoughts when one doesn’t understand the context in which the statements were issued.
Today, I wish, I was GOD, the omnipotent, the omniscient and then I would have made it mandatory for everyone to enclose their thoughts in reasons behind those thoughts; but wishes don’t get fulfilled so easily. Rather they shouldn’t get fulfilled for the mystery in everyone’s life would then be either resolved before he is born or would not be resolved even after his death.
And thus the art of making love would no longer remain an art. It would fall in the category of games played by those bloddy ‘users’